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to carissa the beloved girl and me and xiaoyun:

i just felt very tiny in this world,
like what my friend said,

you grew up, forgetting what your kindergaden friends' names.
you grew up, have no idea what your primary school friends are doing.
you grew up, losing your secondary school friends' contacts cause they emigrated/went to different schools.
you grew up, unable to meet up with your tertiary friends as all are busy working.
you grew up, thinking that you won't lose all your friends again when you forgot their faces, remembering only the 4walls facing you in a small 1m x 1m office cubicle.

it rly somehow makes sense, isn't it? life is too hectic for us to choose friends, cause everyone appear in your life as God/Goddess wants you to know them. &thats why i've chosen those who don't forget me, has an idea what i'm doing, not losing their contacts and meeting up every other week, not thinking i won't lose them, but say hi to them every now and then, and those will be the ones who will not to those vice versa things on me.

3more months to go, and perhaps one day i'll lose their contacts, and get on with my life. there is changes everyday, and so i must learn to accept it.

i might be getting on with my life, start afresh, start everything new like how carissa started hers, happily. &don't regret what you did, because every change&step you make, is actually trying to make yourself a better person.

yes i agreed that sometimes people fall&break down. but, you'll always remember, there is someone behind you to pull you up, tell you to pull yourself together, and get on with life together.

like what xy said, i must be strong. be strong w her and finish off my last bit of 3months. it's going to be a new start for me, even if you refused to talk to me.

&, sorry if i have scolded you. tell me in the face that you don't like my attitude, and i will change. don't talk behind my back. isn't it saddening to see your own friends talking behind your own back? i always think that, what goes around, comes around. so, sorry friends.

&thanks again, xy!

wait.

[6:59 PM]

13november. see my power.